Referal Journal
April 11, 2008
I think we're packed...... May 22, 2008

          Yes, one more post before we leave. 

              I think we're packed!!!  It's about time, don't ya think???  Just waiting on our ride to the airport. 

             Next stop Vancouver, then onto Hong Kong, and finally Nanjing, China!! 

One more post before we travel.... May 22, 2008

        Time for one more post before we leave.  Thank you for everyone's wonderfully warm wishes as we start this new chapter in our lives.  Hoping for a safe and uneventful trip.

           To my family, friends and co-workers, you have all been a a great support over the years, and I want you all to know how much we appreciate it!

            Evan, thanks for putting up with my insanity in the last few weeks. 

         Jane, Yes, I will be wearing my scrubs in China!!

          Melissa, I can hear your accent in your comments in the guest book!  Pal (Lou):  "Did you ever tell her????"

        And, with all the hugs on my last day of work, I lost an earring, a small heart shape post earring, which meant a lot to me.  A valetine's gift from John.  I know it's a long shot, but, if anyone should come accross it - please hang onto it for me.

          Thanks again for all your support and well wishes!!  Hope to see you in China!!!

                          Posted by Jan



Still packing, and repacking, and repacking.... May 21, 2008

      It's actually May 22nd and not May 21st.  It's 3:25 AM, and we're stll packing, and repacking, and repacking.......

          The majority is done.  Just have to tie up a few lose ends, double check our documents , and shift a couple of items from one bag to the other to even out the weight.    We should be okay.  Just hoping that we're not ever limit with the baggage. 

    We'll be leaving late afternoon/evening for an 11PM flight.  Hope to see you in China!!

Going to my Dad's.... May 21, 2008

       The night before we leave for China to bring our baby girl home....Going to my Dad's to have dinner....I get into the car....turn on the radio....Immediately, Matchbox 20 comes on with "unwell".  Well that just about does me in.  It's a song which reminds me most of my Mom's illness and passing.  Even writing this, I can't hold back the tears, and the keyboard become blurry. 

The most important words for me:

     I've been talking in my sleep.  Pretty soon they'll come to get me.  Yeah.  They're taking me away.  Well I'm not crazy.  I'm just a little unwell.  I know you can't tell.  But stay a while and maybe then you'll see a different side of me.  I'm not crazy.  I'm just a little impaired.  I know right now you don't care.  But soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be.  Yeah,  How I used to be.  How I used to be. Yeah.  Well I'm just a little unwell.  How I used to be.  A  little unwell.  How I used to be. I'm just a little unwell........

     We lost my Mom to lung cancer short of 5 1/2 years ago.  She was my best friend, my confidant, and we did everything together.  She was my biggest champion for our china adoption, and was so excited to have a new grand-daughter. 

      It devistates me that she is not here to see our process reach it's completion, and I miss her terribly.

         Even though songs have a specific theme, sometimes part of a song, or certain words fit other situations. 

       In the case of my Mom, cancer was taking her away from us.  Sometimes, I would hear her talking in her sleep.  All she wanted to be was a little unwell,  and, I feel that as time went by she would want us to think of her as how she used to be.......more tears as I write this....

       I will always cherish and hold each and every memory of my Mom in my heart - good and bad - they are so very precious, and, I will pass them on to my daughter.  It is the only way she will know her Grand-mother.

No computer last night..... May 20, 2008

        No computer last night, and was unable to post.  Sunday 12:45AM,  a little longer tonight  turned into a 4 AM deal.  We were also up early that day to continue on with insane frenzy to get something accomplished. 

       We had to turn our tv/computer room/den in to a nursery.  We managed to mostly empty the room, clean it, and put the crib together which was an insane situation in itself.  We kept the daybed in the room in case of some anticipated rough nights when we come home. 

       We'll have to call cablevision to move the cables so we can relocate the tv and computer to the Living room. We  had to get an extened coaxial cable to have internet access until we can make this arrangement.

        Having a major meltdown in the middle of the frey absolutely did not help matters.  Neither did balling like a baby, although, I do feel a bit better for it.  I just have to accept the fact that the house is not going to be in the shape I want it to be.  At least, the baby's room and the bathroom will be clean.  Hopefuly the living room will follow suit once we finish packing.  As for the rest of the house, it should be declared a national disaster area, and, we'll deal with it when we get back from China!! 

        Our first day as a family will be on Monday, May 26th.  We can hardly wait!!  

         We may possibly be able to post at least one more time before we leave, and are hoping to post while in China!!!