You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trust in you.
Isaiah 26.3
Earlier this week we were gifted with 7 photos of our brown-eyed boy celebrating his birthday. These photos are such treasures because they allow us a small glimpse into a day in his life which is soothing to us as we wait for our lives to be one in the same. We were all so excited to see him having his cake although I have to admit that as I looked at these photos my heart ached a bit because of what appeared to be sadness on his little face. To see that everyone around him seemed to be having such a wonderful time of celebrating him while he really appears to be miserable caused my "mommy instincts" to kick in wanting desperately to fix whatever it was that was making him unhappy. I have worried over these photos and felt such a longing to scoop him up and and pour out my affections upon him but have had my heart checked with the knowledge that he may have difficulty receiving and accepting this adoration and love of a family. His little heart may have been wounded causing him to shy away from attention, he may be afraid to have fun for fear that he will be disappointed or he may have simply just woken up from a nap (I know that I don't exactly feel like smiling when I just wake up). Nevertheless, my trust is in the Lord....He can bring perfect peace to my heart as well as the heart of our little boy no matter what the circumstances of our emotions are.
31/2 years ago when we first saw Emily's picture, I prayed every day that God would prepare her to meet me. I even boldly went before the Lord and asked that God would give her vivid dreams of me so that on that day when she saw me for the first time that my face would be familiar and somehow bring her comfort and that she would know that she was safe in my arms. I KNOW that God heard and answered my prayers and so I am on my knees once again praying for my little boy who is so far away, going before the throne of the God who made him asking that in a supernatural way my brown-eyed boy would have a great sense of a mother's love even if she is thousands of miles away.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurable more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." Ephesians 3:20
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