Our plane just took off and our journey begins. A journey that God orchestrated and put into motion one year and 2 months ago. As I sit here flying across the world to embrace the heart of a little boy who will be my son forever I shudder at the thought that one simple act of disobedience, saying no to the calling of God to step out of my comfy place could have robbed me and our family of this incredible blessing. This miracle colliding with my neatly packaged life is unfolding right before my eyes and how thankful I am that God chose me for this path.
The road has been long and not without sacrifice. In fact as I said goodbye to my babies last night and this morning I felt the sting of sacrifice so real that my heart ached. It is not easy leaving the 3 most precious things in the world for 14 days knowing that when we return our lives will be drastically different. But as I told my sweet Grace, it may be hard but when this portion is over she will be the big sister of a baby brother who will forever know of the sacrifice his sister made to bring him home.
So I sit here blown away once again by the goodness of the Lord. Full and completely ready to absorb all that HE has waiting for me through this journey. I will trust in HIM with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding but in all my ways I will acknowledge Him and he will make my path straight. The next few weeks are a big unknown. I have no idea what lies ahead of me and does that scare me….you bet! But I know that amidst these unknowns there is a brown-eyed boy who God created just for me. Just like my 4 other babies whom God knew before they were bonr and made a way for them to become my sons and daughters, Joshua was known by his Creator before he took his first breath and was in God’s incredible and magnificent plan He has brought us together for such a time as this. So I walk in faith knowing that God’s ways are ALWAYS perfect.
Thank you for what you’ve given
Your goodness overwhelms me
As long as breath is in my voice
I’ll sing of your work in me.
Nate Reese Thank You
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