"I can do all things through HIM who gives me strength" Phil. 4:13
I cannot believe that in 4 days I will be boarding a plane headed for China to receive the most precious gift this earthly world can offer. A darling little boy sits on this evening in his orphange with no comprehension of how his little world is about to change. The thought of him and what awaits him in less than a week fills my heart and mind with more emotion than I can scarely comprehend. I am excited beyond words but at the same time I am filled with fear. What will his reaction be to this person whom he has never seen before outside of a picture? When he leaves all that he has known for almost 4 years and leaves with two strange people will he be afraid. Will he ache for the nannies who have cared and love him? All of these questions swirl around in my mind and my heart hurts for my brown-eyed boy and what he is about to lose. So amidst the excitement and anticipation within me I ache for my little boy. I pray today that God will fill him with courage. May he "be strong and courageous and not terrified, may he not be discouraged and may he KNOW that the Lord his God will be with him wherever he goes" Josh. 1:9 Oh how I pray this scripture will take a strong root in my Joshua's heart and that he will have the strength and courage of the mighty warrior, Joshua for who he was named. I ask that the Lord His God will prepare his heart and mind for a mommy who longs to love the hurt away, who will patiently soothe his ache because she knows deeply the pain of losing something precious. Bind our hearts, O Lord as only you can, as we are now miles away draw us close so that we both can know intimately how to love each other in a pure and healing way.
Our upcoming days will be chocked full of preparations for our journey, packing, taking down Christmas decorations, errands, getting things ready here at home for Aunt Cynthia and Miss Sara. I am believing with faith that "I can do all these things through Him who gives me strength." I am tired and very weary. The busyness of my work schedule prior to the break coupled with an insane last week of school for the kids left me depleted and physically drained not to mention that the first week of our Christmas break was spent passing a horrible stomach virus through our family. It is during these times when we are unable to do things on our own that Our Mighty God is able to come near and fill us with His strength which is far greater that anything we could muster up by ourselves. GREAT IS THE LORD and greatly to be praised. I trust in Him today.
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